Life and times of a pussycat this is useless rambling of a bored college student...this is where i vent!



Thursday, April 11, 2002 :::
 
fuck it all...thank you

::: posted by Sonja at 12:45 AM



Tuesday, April 09, 2002 :::
 
well...i was in a good mood today, but suddenly i started to think and BAM! no more happy.

it was nice outside...sean played his guitar and mike and threw the lacross ball around....i payed the bursar money so i can live here next year....yeah, bill called and we started to bicker about seeminly meaningless things. urg. that makes me mad. he needs not be depress that i haev another life here, and want to hang out wiht my friends. urg. i know he understands taht, but it still irks me at times. i mean, we're not marreid yet, and i would love to spend more time together...i would like to be surprised, but it is just not in my nature which pisses me off even mroe. why the fuck did i ruin a proposall? who can do that oter than me? i feel so guilty about ti and jsut want to make it better, but what the hell can i do about it? absolutly nothing.

i jsut spent time reading things from my past and taht made me deressed. i am distant from so many thigns that i used to care about. i don't want to wokr anymore, teaching jsut seems to be a hopeless goal and i dunno if i have a summer job. i hate this. it is too mice outside for me to be depresed. and in the grand scheme of things, all this bitching is nothing compaired to the problems others aer having. i have nothing to complain about. i am in good shape. life sucks




::: posted by Sonja at 4:47 PM


 
draging mysefout of bed this morning was probably the best thing i could do! even though i woke up late and didn't have a workout partner, i still went to the gym. here's a hint for all you crazy people....10am at the gym = no one there..i had MY choise of machines. bike for about 45 min and about...what was it....23 miles??? yeah, i think that is it. now i am more away and generally happier. plus it feels soo nice outside. i will walk downtown today and fill my perscription and go to the bank. YEA!!

::: posted by Sonja at 10:55 AM



Monday, April 08, 2002 :::
 
mmmm....morning. i was up at 7am today to write that pesky paper, but it done...all it needs is a litle polishing. it has been so long since i wrote a real paper, and i have begun to question if this is REAL college. shouldn't i be doing mroe work? shouldn't i feel like i am learning something? maybe, maybe not, but i just want to to learn, but not do work. wierd i know. i have been in the kind of mood lately that i just want to curl up with a good book...falling away form this world and into others that may be more dangerous, but more fun.

mmmm..moring. i like sitting here in my robe and slippers, a thing taht i do not get to do very often. mind you, i still appreciate the joys of the wonderful world of sleep, but dragged out of it as i was and pummeled wiht cold water to get my senes going....well, it not all bad.

mmmm...moringing...i do want to take a nap.

::: posted by Sonja at 8:51 AM



Sunday, April 07, 2002 :::
 
well, here i am avoiding doing my paper...yet again. why is it i am not motivated?? i was on friday, but god forbid i do work then! urg.
i read sophiclease though...i enjoyed that!

i am sore...and i dunno why....ok, enough procrastinating...more later.


::: posted by Sonja at 10:51 PM






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